You know how in movies the weather seems to match the mood? Everyone's sad and bummed out and the weather is oh-so-conveniently rainy and dreary.
Well I think I might be in a movie. It's rainy and dreary and that's kind of how I've been feeling these past two days.
We've been getting progressively worse news on our adoption since the end of December but most of it has come in the last two weeks. Yesterday I was driving to an adoption event and, to be honest, I didn't really want to go. I didn't want to talk to other adoptive moms. I didn't want to have to say out loud what's going on with Ethiopia. It was drizzling when I left the house and then an all-out rain storm hit us about halfway there.
I'm glad I went (cue little ray of sunshine and maybe a bird tweet). The moms who were there also happen to be my friends and they were wonderfully supportive and made me feel much better about the situation. Thank God they did. When I got home I saw the official US Embassy announcement about Ethiopian adoptions. And it's not good (cue thunderclap).
It was raining this morning as I packed up the injera and aterkik alitcha I had made to bring to Riley's school for their "Trip around the World." His classroom was Ethiopia. I spent all morning talking to the different classes about Ethiopia, letting them try the food, and talking about what life is like for kids there. And it rained all morning. I, however, didn't cry, so I consider that a success.
Now it's a rainy, dreary afternoon. The kind where you just want to curl up in bed with a book but end up falling asleep before you've read three pages. It's the kind of weather that's the opposite of motivational - you don't want make any major decisions on a rainy day.
And today I'm not making any major decisions. I have said out loud that this situation could mean that we may not be able to adopt from Ethiopia. This is true, we may not. But we don't have to jump ship just yet. We aren't making any major decisions. Because we didn't begin our journey towards Ethiopia on a whim. It was well thought out and covered in prayer. Any other decisions we may make will be done in the same way.
Please pray for us. Pray for me - I'm not handling this as gracefully as I would like. But more importantly, please pray for the children of Ethiopia. I can handle the emotional pain that would come from not getting to adopt a child from Ethiopia. I can get through that. But what it might mean for those kiddos who would never know forever families is a much greater wound. Please pray for them and for their government.